Today is the day we make a move in a strange and unknown
direction. Research, conversations, prayers, lists, visits…I’ve done more
digging on this single decision than all of my biggest decisions combined. Marriage, children, home-ownership, starting a
business…all followed my gut. This decision, however, affects more than myself,
so I’ve lingered in the safe places for a bit longer. At some point, an action
is required…a blind step in some direction. I can stew and simmer, dig and
deliberate but today’s the day we jump.
Maya & Cole are two completely different glorious
beings. From day one, they’ve required
different styles of parenting, different ways to reason, different motivations,
different definitions of love. It's no surprise that they also
have different ways of learning. Today I submit paperwork that releases him from school and we begin the wild world
of home-schooling.
So many fears. Again,
that negative voice speaks I’m no teacher, you may fail, he may suffer, others
will judge. Those fears apply to
almost any decision. The way I understand it, decision making has one final outcome. Finding a thousand opinions in favor and equal
amounts against, the pros and cons list
may possibly equal out. We can remain in
the status-quo safe places or we can follow another path. Ultimately, after all the digging, diving,
and solid hours of prayer, one foot must finally move in front of the
other. No longer satisfied in the safe
places, today we jump.
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